Before I continue posting about my daily whatabouts, I'm so surprise & touched by what mom wrote on the whiteboard this morning when I woke up.

" Because someone doesn't love you the way you want them to doesn't mean they don't love you with all they have. If you doesn't want ZiLong, tell him how much you don't want him & state the reason. But if you want, tell him how much you need him but do not state any reasons because the past has already taken place. Don't drag on this r/s because it's not nice for a guy to cry like this for you. "



Apprantly, I thought mum was going to scold me when I haven't finishing reading. But I was god-damn touched when I saw this msg. On the other hand, my mind made me turned wild & crazy as I have to think much more harder to what decision I'm gonna make.

I went to meet up with Long yesterday. He lost weight. Yes, alot ~ He passed me our 1 Year anniversary presents. It's not about the gift that made me touched. It's I realised for the past few months, he didn't get me what I wanna because he was saving up for the presents & places he wanted to bring me to on this special day.

Yes, I've mistaken him for the past few days.



The whole family of Pooh and ......



this ~ Inside contains many small pieces of notes. I was tearing while opening each and every note that he wrote in that many pieces of paper. Msgs like " I'm sorry I hurt you ", " I love you so much ", " I wanna make you mine again ", " Don't ever leave me ", " Happy 1 year anniversary ", " You're the one and only girl I love " etc etc etc ~

Tell me how can I stop my tears from flowing ?

Yes ! All these melted & shoken my heart. But people, there're still many things to consider. When we were apart, who are the ones who stood by my side, cheering me up & everything ?

And now if we are back together, I have to give up on all these. How will others think of me ? Making use of their friendship for the past month ?

Think back. I really want my heart to give me an answer. I don wan to have any regrets of letting him go if my decision is like this now.

I felt that there're two things we shouldn't say to the one we love. "I love you, but..." and "If you loved me, you would..."

Should we really qualify love with conditions ? But the other party states that this is the kind of ways that will make the love grows stronger & stronger & stronger .... He doesn't feel secure cos I have guys friends around me. I can understand his feeling cos if he has tons of gfs around him, I wouldn't feel easy.

Den why make both parties miserables ? Sacrificing things that we know we can't accept nor take it ?

My life is in a mess, right now.

Been a longgg time since she last stared at me & listen to my sorrows. Ok, I'm aniticipated to receive her warm hug again. Yay ~ Soon again =(